“Story
about a pig, possibly from a lager story about The last old
school cowboy.”
By
Scott Garcia
Oinky wasn’t just
a pig, he was my first friend on this planet. This is how I came to
kill my first friend along with the confusion and possible trauma it
causes.
It was my 5th
birthday. Dad brought a little pink piglet home from the sale barn,
it must have been a weekend, as mom was home and so were my half
brothers and sisters. I swaddled him up like a baby, had to bottle
feed him for a month or so. I think my dad stole him from the back of
a truck as he was leaving the sale barn. Not sure but that’s the
memory that goes with the story.
I ran with that pig
like I did my dogs, my favorite game was chase, run causing pig to
give chase, then I would jump up on a fence or an upside down water
trough, out of reach of the piglet. He would jump after me acting
like it was gonna bite. That soon became a reality, when one day in a
game of chase a bigger, faster pig, beat me to the safe zone and boom
he bit me on the finger. Cutting me open and a cause for emergency
attention and that was enough for dad to get out the Pliers and pull
that little pigs tusks right there in the kitchen. Upside down, in my
dads lap, full on farm surgery. “There, that damn pig won’t ever
bite you again.” my dad said. Sure enough no matter what I did to
that pig it wouldn’t bite, I could bite his ear and he would not
bite me back.
Actually Oinky took
good care of me getting in-between me and danger several times.
Keeping me from falling into a boiling pot of water, out in the
butcher yard, and keeping me from entering around dangerous horses
and other livestock. Including throwing a stranger to the ground. A
man came walking into the yard, past the gate, looking for dad, Oinky
put himself between me and the man. The man reached towards me and
the pig took too him like a dog, before the pig could cause damage to
the man, my dad came hollering. “Hey there, pig, stop that!” It
did and came straight to me like a trained dog.
When I wasn’t
around to be watched over, the pig, on most days ran with the dogs.
It was part of the pack, chasing cars on the main road. Basically
patrolling the 10 acre farm and all the life that goes with it. But
it was that chasing of cars when it got to be 120lbs that would be
the cause of that pigs end. Oinky had caused some fright, injury and
attention. Somebody came looking for a big pig running down the road
and at a perfect size to butcher. Being smarter than the dogs he
could get out of his pen and dig under almost any fence. He was never
gonna be contained!
It was a cold
morning, most likely in October or November. We got our jackets on,
it was me, dad and a farm hand, If I remember right, it was Pancho,
my uncle. Oinky was already in a single shoot, part of the live stock
pen system, but a way to trap an animal in a small chute, between two
gates with wooden slide locks.
Oinky was penned up
looking worried by all this, and that sent me to worry. I knew what
was coming and dad went right to it. “Son, you know the trouble
we’ve had with that pig.” “And well we cant really keep him,
he’s big now and eats too much to keep.” “Your brothers and
sisters like Bacon, Pasole and you love Chicharone’s.” “So,
don’t you think we should butcher him?”
Man, that felt like
a ton of bricks, but I grew up farm, I know what happens, I know
where my food comes from. I just don’t like the idea of my friend,
my best friend. I felt so betrayed by my dad, I felt at odds with my
love of my family, my love of my pig and his demise, along with the
fear of my dad.
I put everything
in order real fast. “Ok!” I thought, then spoke. “Let’s
butcher him.” Next was the terror, dad put a 22 revolver in my hand
and said “you should kill him, he’s yours and you raised him.”
I had no idea the honor in this killing at the time, but he was
right. When read “Of mice and men.” My reaction was similar to
reading the ending of the book, I was sickened, saddened, with the
love and, knowing, impermanence a sacredness that you owe to a life
you have cared for.
I’ve had to put
many animals down out of suffering and I have ate many of my
livestock. It is a contributing factor to why I don’t eat meat in
the present time.
Oinky looked at me
like I betrayed him and I did. I took the gun, shaky, and I know my
dad was trying to make me a man, but he did drink too much and I fear
this is one of those drunk mistakes, but I shot that pig and I
missed. The bullet skinned his head and skipped his neck, slicing his
back like a knife, his face and all his skin slumped and he gave out
the wickedest squeal. I reeled back in shock of what I’d just done
or failed to do. My dad took the gun from me with a curse, “son of
a bitch.” then jumped into the chute and shove the barrel of the
gun in the pigs snout and fired twice, pop pop. Down went the pig
with a relief from everyone with the exception of me.
I’ll spare you
the details of dissecting, butchering my best friend. But I will
tell, that bacon and Chicharone’s never tasted the same and I
prefer to eat vegetables now, along with living the precept, that all
living beings deserve peace love and happiness, even bacon.
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